Okay, so the diet has begun. It hasn’t begun very well though. The day before yesterday I went for a (very small) jog. Although I said I wouldn’t be doing the whole healthy eating and exercising thing, I did go for a jog. The main reason is that I would like to be able to run, and I guess I have to start somewhere.

That night I ate two rolls with marmite on them (gotta love the marmite!) and about 100gms of chocolate. Sigh. I didn’t feel too guilty, as I had done the jog. Then we get to yesterday. I took a pill containing 120mgs of BZP which should have been enough to keep the appetite at bay for some time. I also went for a jog in the morning (another very small one). Things were looking good. Unfortunately there is also the habit of eating which isn’t so easy to break. I managed to not eat, and then at dinner time, my employer comes home and asks what we should have for dinner… without even thinking I suggest takeaway chicken that is available across the road… The child that I look after gets all excited and screeches YES YES CAN WE?????

To add insult to injury the child decides he wants chips as well with the chicken. So we all end up with hot chips too. Argh! That was dinner. Why couldn’t I have just kept my mouth shut?!!!! I didn’t even really want to eat it, but sort of had to after I asked my employer to buy it for me. Not good.

Luckily the BZP seems to have quite a long lasting effect on me. I didn’t go for a jog today. I woke up and thought my throat felt sore. By the time the kid had come home from school (at midday, lucky German kids,  unlucky nanny!) my sore throat had disappeared and I was angry with myself. It’s likely that my throat wasn’t sore to start with, just all in my head. The things our amazing minds can do aye?

We’re supposed to be doing the grocery shopping this evening. Not a very exciting Friday night activity, and very likely to end up with all sorts of junk in the trolley.  The family I work for unfortunately have very unhealthy eating habits, and even before I started my new diet I was horrified at the lack of fruit and veges. Most of the veges in Germany seem to come straight from a can. It just doesn’t seem very healthy.

Urgh, and don’t even get me started on the meat consumption here…. it’s all pork, sausages and salami. I’m used to a lot of fish and chicken back home. So I continue my struggle, against the gut pressing tightly against the jeans (the largest I could find as well!) and against the revolting food in the land where meat reigns supreme.  Tomorrow is another day