Argh! And I was being so good…. well, I was being good for a whole 2 and a half days. Then, god only knows what happened, but I sort of fell off the wagon… again!
I had been very good with the only drinking water, and the not eating very much at all thing, and then I went out on Saturday and ate a whole heap of crap, and then it all came to a head on Sunday when I must have consumed about a weeks worth of calories. I sat in my room all day watching TV and eating chocolate and lollies. I felt sick at one point, so stopped for about 15 minutes to catch my breath, and then started up again.
Monday consisted of more of the same. I baked a cake, and then proceeded to eat three quarters of it. How embarrassing. I also hid in my room eating more chocolate and drinking diet coke. Today has been nothing but more of the same. I need to be sent to a fat camp or something. Seriously!
Tomorrow is another day, hopefully a better one!
Hang on a minute… ‘the not eating much at all thing’, that can’t be good. You need to eat, babe! How much food do you eat in a typical day?
No worries! Eating is definitely happening, when I mean the not eating much at all thing, it’s usually still a good 1800 calories or so! As someone who lived of KFC McDonalds Wendys ETC it seems like such a food free day!
I need to get used to that!
Isn’t eating a large portion of a cake simply your body’s/mind’s reaction to being deprived? In my personal experience, the less I eat and/or the more I restrict myself, the more I end up binging… it seems that the key is to let go. While I haven’t mastered guilt-free eating just yet, at least I’m not restricting myself anymore. I’d like to think that that’s a step in the right direction ;o)
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